Waiting, Praying, Waiting, Praying, Waiting...

This by far is the most stressful time... it is funny, I feel like I have said that over and over again in the last several months. We are standing on a cliff of opportunity. The rubber is meeting the road. I feel promise in my soul but then again, there are not gaurantees in this life. So what is going on?

Last week we needed to make a choice about our living situation. Really, without knowing what is to come. I guess it should not surprise me, it seems like our decisions always seem to be made based on faith. Sometimes, I wonder if we will ever be able to make a decision based on concrete facts rather than the unseen. With that being said, God provided such a cool house for us in Zionsville. We did agree to rent it, and are excited about the location, yard and house! It is cute and we move in 3 weeks- YIKES!!

This week is another story. Hans has an interview for the position at the academy on Friday. We are both nervous. It seems like we are both kind of grasping for things to anchor us here. Why is that our natural tendency to be anchored here? We know that our anchor is Jesus, he is preparing a place for us in his Kingdom, not here on earth...

Yesterday, Abe said he was done moving. He told me he wants to stay in Indiana. How do you explain all these things to him? How do I tell him that we are going to follow God wherever he takes us? He is 4 soon to be 5... my heart hurts for this. I want to be here too.

Today, I picked up my devotional "Streams in the Desert" and turned to today's date- Here is the Entry, it is long, but worth me typing it out in hopes it gets written in my soul~

May 6

The Secret of the Lord is with them that fear him (ps. 25:14)

There are secrets of providence which God's dear children may learn. His dealings with them often seem, to the outward eye, dark and terrible. Faith looks deeper and says, "This is God's secret. You look only on the outside; I can look deeper and see the hidden meaning."

Sometimes diamonds are done up in rough packages, so that thier value cannot be seen. When the tabernacle was built in the wilderness there was nothing rich in its outside appearance. The costly things were all within, and its outward covering of rough badger skin gave no hint of the vaulable things which it contained.

God may send you, dear friends, some costly packages. Do not worry if they are done up in rough wrappings. You may be sure there are treasures of love and kindnessm and wisdom hidden within. If we take what He sends, and trust Him for the goodness in it, even in the dark, we shall learn the meaning of the secrets of providence. -AB Simpson

Not until each loom is silent,

And the shuttles cease to fly,

Will God unroll the pattern

And explain the reason why

The dark threads are as needful

In the Weaver's skillful hand,

As the threads of gold and silver

For the pattern which He planned.

He that is mastered by Christ is the master of every circumstance. Does the circumstance press hard against you? Do not push it away. It is the Potter's hand. Your mastery will come, not by arresting its progress, but by enduring its discipline, for it is not only shaping you into a vessel of beauty and honor, but it is making your resources available.